Loneliness

Oh! Loneliness

unlike any other day

you fill me with a sweet chaos

showing me a new way

to the destiny

I ought to reach

to the destiny

I wanted in which

I'm all alone

with my companion

lost in her eyes

in ecstacy of oblivion

My love,

in vain, Finding the words

to reach the heights of your beauty

the rain, of light from those splendors

enlightens me of you, O' my deity

I dream about the end

I lost the way

take my hand my friend

don't let me go astray

it's a prison I live in

every bar is your thought

why would I break in

to the world which is but nought

you, I want

bear your agony, I can't

even if my silence is what it takes

to keep you safe and aloof

with all vitality of a drowning man

i'll fight and cry with myself

forgive me if for any reason

I disclose this and loose your faith

this is treachery, this is treason

this is also my one last breath

SHUBHAM

Love Dualism

Ashamed I am of the latest event
and it feels like I got bitten by a serpent

It tells me my love was ne'er love
and that avidity was way above
My heart is torn to pieces
and the pain only increases

Of all these years of penance
I can feel the sheer absence
of what I had set out to achieve
to finally experience blissful peace

Aware I am now of my failure
saw it all in my life's trailer
The strength and the courage
got bogged down by that baggage

Took ample pride in who I made me.
Factors played their role, I now agree.

My heart now yearns for that path
penance commences: tell it not in Gath.

Habits changed the way I wanted,
I did complete what I started.

It took me to unexplored meadows,
The need for climbing virgin peaks arose.

Realized my purpose was still incomplete,
Smiled and said I will live free.

In a flurry of commotion,
of that unpleasant yet romantic realization,
the lump of air, I couldn't swallow.
my heart screamed, I couldn't follow.

Wise did it make me yet again
taught me to embrace that pain,
to work with me ,
set myself free,
wake me up from my slumber,
taste life, no wonder.and it feels like I got bitten by a serpent

It tells me my love was ne'er love
and that avidity was way above
My heart is torn to pieces
and the pain only increases

Of all these years of penance
I can feel the sheer absence
of what I had set out to achieve
to finally experience blissful peace

Aware I am now of my failure
saw it all in my life's trailer
The strength and the courage
got bogged down by that baggage

Took ample pride in who I made me.
Factors played their role, I now agree.

My heart now yearns for that path
penance commences: tell it not in Gath.


Habits changed the way I wanted,
I did complete what I started.

It took me to unexplored meadows,
The need for climbing virgin peaks arose.

Realized my purpose was still incomplete,
Smiled and said I will live free.

In a flurry of commotion,
of that unpleasant yet romantic realization,
the lump of air, I couldn't swallow.
my heart screamed, I couldn't follow.

Wise did it make me yet again
taught me to embrace that pain,
to work with me ,
set myself free,
wake me up from my slumber,
taste life, no wonder.

My Reflections

I wish there was a mirror,

Which told me how I felt

Which showed me my true self

But then I am afraid

That if I knew what I was

Would I still love myself?


Mirrors are traders,

They give you what you give them..

Neither less, nor more

But of some things m still unsure

Wht if …..the mirror doesn’t reflect the truth ?

Wht if ….its a shrewd trickster,

Swindling around with our images?

Coz what I see in the mirror is not me, I know

And what I really am, I still hesitate to show….


I wonder whether I will find a true mirror,

Reflecting ME,

Echoing MY voice…

Though harsh, but so true,

Though aching, but still so sweet,

Coz mirror is reflection of pretence, not thoughts

It is so untrue and false,

It deceives me throughout my life,

Gets me back to the start…

to go around again!


I blind myself to my own thirst….

I starve my soul,

Bind my flight,

Curb my voice,

Mould my image,

To fit that mirror,

Oh! That limiting mirror…

Unaware of my potential,

Ignorant of my choices……


If it’s just that mirror which hold me back

I refuse to gaze in it

I reject the need of its approval

Coz I know that it’s too shallow to gauge my depth

And I pity those who spend their whole life framed in that mirror….

Oh! That limiting mirror…..

Milenge

Musafir hai hum bhi
Musafir ho tum bhi
Phir kahin to hogi
Mulakat bhi

Na kisi kauf hoga
Na kisi se wasta

Tanhio me biti teri yaad hogi
Teri wo masoom si muskaan bhi hogi
Mukkammal  sapno ki raat hogi
Lamba intezaar tha to barsaat bhi hogi

Bechain hum bhi the
Bechain tum bhi ho

Aaj to aansuon se shuruat hogi
Bahte chalenge inme sath tumare
Har pal rahenge pass tumare

The History

Kisi ne kaha hai
Itihaas dohrata hai khud Ko bar bar,
Aj mauka mila itihaas se robaroo hone ka,

Bekhouf hokàr chàrchà hui
Na itihaas ne humko samjha tha
Nà humne kàbhi itihaas Ko,

Bada marm hai teri iss kahàni me,
Aj pta chala kitna dard chupaye baitha hai
Sadiyon se,

Na dohrana tu khud Ko bar bar,
Na samajh hi sahi tu or mai
Alag alag hi sahi.

Tera Shahar..

 

Tere Shahar me Hun main khada,
Bhataq gya Hun rasta,
Thaam le Zara iss hath Ko,
Na koi Manzil ka ptaa,
Na koi aasra hai,
Sirf tu hai or tera ye Shahar hai,
Akela hi Hun khada
Tere Iss Shahar me,
Bhataq gya Hun rasta.

Ae Mere Khuda

Baksh deta hai Khuda unko, jinki kismat kharab hoti hai..

Wo hargiz bakshe nahi jaate, jinki neeyat kharab hoti hai..

Na mera ek hoga, na tera laakh hoga..

Na tariff teri hogi, na mazaak mera hoga…

Guroor na kar iss shaan shaukat, shareer par..

Mera bhi khaak hoga aur tera bhi khaak hoga…

Translation:

God forgives those with bad destiny but not those with cruel intentions.
Do not take pride in your riches and prosperity and your life. All of us will come to an end!

A lesson in humility, in this small transitory minute life. Have you ever compared the size of the Universe with your own size? It is a cruel reminder of your insignificance, your ordinary mortality.

Do not be vain in life. It is one very small life. In this small speck in the universe, live gracefully and live well.  Have good intentions even if destiny isn’t very lenient with you. The Almighty will take care of the rest!

Un aankhon ki kahati jubani ko to sun lo,

Mujhse meri ishq ki kahani sun lo,

Batton se ab ye samandar na bandho tum,

Mujhse to apni beimani to sun lo

Un sao sawalon ka ek jawab hai aaya

Mila jo sukun to us kahan to sunn lo

Mai to apne hi un wadon me uljha rha

Kahte rahe sab uss diwani ko bhi to sun lo.....

"Tu haqiqt hai ya koi fasana,
Tu roshni hai ya andhera,
Tu jo bhi hai,
 hai to meri Sanso me bassi"